I haven’t been writing. In fact it’s been almost a year since I’ve written. For a very long time it was because I didn’t have the words to explain. The pain I was feeling was so great that I literally lost my voice. I almost lost my mind. More recently it’s been because there are too many words. I can’t get anything to come out in a coherent thought. There are so many things I wasn’t to talk about, so many things I want to share. I want to talk about trauma and how for some people it turns the volume of the world down so low that the only way people can feel is by chasing an adrenaline high (or some